Tuesday, October 4, 2016

PARTING IS SUCH SWEET SORROW.

A guy named K has been my close friend for over 10 years. How I meet him was a funny story. In the 2004 in ULL newspaper K posted ad to meet some single women for friendship. I had lost a bet with one of friends a call him. We meet somewhere on campus and talk. From what I remember is a long talk. Over the last few years we meet up when we had time. In the last few weeks he becomes love obsessed with me. It was my close friend in CA that pointed this out to. K is over 40 yrs with high intelligent that dealing with a bipolar who is still a virgin. I never saw him more than a friend. He became clingier after the death of his father. He was also doing this another woman. Who I become friends with bc of him. I have blocked him from my life. I wish him the best and hope he finally happiness he seeks. But not from me. I thank him for being there for me though some of darkest moments in life. But when he becomes one of them. When I had say good bye,

One night either in 2003 or 2004 after a hard day at ULL and work I was chilling at my fav place Mels when I met. I think meet him BC I sat down at the booth and he was sitting there already or I was IDK. D and I started talking right away. We become fast friends. Over the nx few yrs we become best friends. Something in our friendship change. IDK at 1st.  In the last three yrs our friendship came completely different. It was pointed it out to me. When I needed a job not once twice D was there for me. Vice versus. IDk if I was the one who change or he did. IDK really.  I missed what we had. I feel he treated me like shit and was cruel to me sometime. maybe i should have talk D about how i felt. But I didnt. IDK y. 
I have change this summer when I gave my life to God. I’m not the same. We grow in different paths. We both change. Maybe I should have told this him this. I didn’t which are my bad. After sometime not talking to D I follow my Ex advise. It blows up in my face. Then I realize it was truly over. I have change and so has he. I wish D the best. I hope he fined the happiness, love, success, and peace he deserves. I wish him no ill will.
Ppl change and grow apart. How we handle it that makes a difference? We face it head on. R pull like i ghost act like i did. That might have not been the right decision. at the time i thought is was. They both deserve me to tell them in person how i felt. I was told to do by some close friend. I figured it would be wasted of time and pointless. D told me THIS but I didnt want to hear it. 
Right now two another close friendship are on thin ice. I hope to handle this better. Right now im praying on.
to D and K
IM SORRY HOW I HANDLE THIS SITUATION. I SHOULD HAVE TALK TO U AND NOT PULLED AN GHOST ACT. THANKS FOR BEING IN MY LIFE AND HAVING MY BACK WHEN I NEEDED YOU. YOU DESERVE ME TALK U IN PERSON THAT OUR FREINDSHIP CAME TO END AND WE ARE DIFFERENT PATHS. I WISH U GUYS THE BEST IN LIVE. MAY GOD BLESS U BOTH AND FAMILIES.  
PEACE LOVE AND ROCKETS