This past month has been hard for me. Three close friends that I have known for over 10 years. When they needed me I have been there without question. But I needed them they have led me down again. I love them like family. After them giving many changes to chance but they didn’t. Ending long term friendship is like ending a long term relationship. It can be long emotional and physical draining.
During this time I have finiad problems so I’m trying to find a second job. I had a local coffee I love to go too. I work there two months but I had to leave. Now I’m looking for second job which hard without people out of work.
I decided to have long distance Christian relationship with someone I fall in with. I was happy until prank by a family ended with us. It’s a lot he said she said and no one taking responsibly. This person is not soul mate. My heart broken and it will time heal.
One person I thought was closed friend I told them about what going in my life. They could have care less. This person doesn’t know how I feel. If I tried to talk they don’t want to hear. I will ending this friendship soon when it time is right I will have to take it slow and then pull ghost act. I seriously doubt this person care or even notice bc I just joke to them.
I have self discovery this past month. By taking a good look at myself I saw things I didn’t like what I saw. I have keeping friendship that has been one side. It has been a roller coaster of emotions inside me.
With God help I have seen what life can be like without certain people I can see peace. I really for a new chapter in my life which is about me.